Is This Now?

What ruins the present is our resistance to it.

Do you hear voices in your head?  I didn’t realize it was there until I paid attention to it.

I came across several authors talking about the thinking mind and the observing mind. I am a newbie when it comes to the subject but I have to agree, for most of us, our thinking mind is in fact very noisy.

We are either trapped in the past or in the future, and rarely dwell in the now. It’s crazy because, inhabiting the past brings about regrets, guilt, or sometimes too much comfort, resting on “back in the day” victories. 

Future on the other hand, is sort of a window with a view to “I am not sure, is there going to be another day?”, and you succumb to worry, fear, and anxiety. Equally worse, you “dream” and “hope” about things and you’re stuck in that state without even doing the work.

The past is nothing more than all present moments that have gone by, and the future is just the collection of present moments waiting to arrive.

Eckhart Tolle

What ruins the present is our resistance to it.

I had to come to grips with this truth.  I thought to myself, how many times have I made a job so heavy just because I was resisting the challenge it brings? How many times did I break a relationship just because I was looking too far ahead, and not giving a space for the other person to catch up?

The past has dimmed its lights but I keep on breathing in the dark. The future never really comes but I kept on looking out the window,  anticipating.  If I were “Now” I’d be disappointed with myself too.  The present loses its spark, its gift because we’re not wanting it. We’re really not choosing it.

It’s a shame.

The “Now” passes by every second I write on this page.  I need not fill all the spaces in between these words. Every space is a chance to breathe. To be conscious of the “NOW” and feel it as it slips to the past and brings forth another moment.  This moment in time is when and where we ought to live, because it’s everything there all is.  

I choose to risk my significance, to live so that which came to me as seed goes to the next as blossom, and that which came to me as blossom, goes on as fruit.

Dawna Markova

My wish for all of us  is to have the ability and appreciation to turn every “Now” into a gift that we can give to our past and to our future.  

I commit to welcome it as it is and to not resist it. Instead, I will do what it demands from me right now.  I can never be too excited about the past nor the future more than I have to be excited about NOW. This moment right here is all there is. It’s the only certainty I’ve got. What I make of it will define my past and what I do with it will complete my future.

How about you?

2 thoughts on “Is This Now?”

  1. Stuart Danker – Malaysia – A Malaysian writer who's been in the no-niche niche for a decade. His debut novel, Tinhead City KL was published in April 2021.
    Stuart Danker says:

    I don’t hear voice in my head, but I do talk to myself a lot in my head. I’ve also learned that some people never think with voices and instead do with visuals only. Quite interesting, I must say.

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