“Your mind and your heart is a battlefield. You decide what wins, and who wins.”#sundaewrites
Disappointment. It depletes your energy. It saps your motivation. It makes you think and do a lot of crazy things you wouldn’t have thought or done if you were in your happy state.
Remember the times you took out on people who have nothing to do with what you’re going through or the times when you’ve thrown in the towel and frustratingly exclaimed, “It’s over”? Crazy. Why? Coz often times we make decisions in the heat of the moment, in the height of our feelings.
Everyone has had experienced the weight of being let down. I have my fair share of it in different aspects of life- relationships, faith, service, work, even in the things that I do out of passion- music, and writing. There would be people who would admire what you have or have accomplished but they never got to see the hard work you’ve put into it. There would be times when your efforts are valued less, or go by unnoticed. There would be moments when it would feel like, you’re hardly getting there not getting closer to your dreams or inching forward to what you want to accomplish.
Mind you, it’s tough. But that’s just how it is. Yesterday you were happy, today you are sad, and tomorrow, you might find hope. The day after that you may feel invincible, the next day, you look at yourself in the mirror and say “What a total loser”. Sometimes you may experience all these in one single day. Take for example the old man who worries about money one morning, and wins the lotto in the evening. Just like that. Or the day when you had a happy get together with friends, just to come home to news of a loved one’s death. Yes, just like that.
One struggling woman shared this beautiful “pick-me-up” kind of reminder that was passed on to her by her grandmother. It says, “Do your best with what’s in front of you and leave the rest to the powers above you”. Beautiful, sensible, comforting. Indeed, we can only focus on one moment at a time. While the larger world moves around us at the very same instant, we can do something with what’s right before us. After all, you’re only certain about this time Now, and not the time after that.
Our mind is a battlefield. Oftentimes we already know what to do but it seems difficult to point ourselves in that direction. That’s because we insist for things to happen the way it “supposed to”. We find it hard to let go or we spend too much time asking “Why” and turn our back on the more important and liberating question of, “What now?”. We’re stubborn like that, and we’re scared to move on.
Our heart is a battlefield too. We should always guard and defend it from enemy invasion. One thing I’m learning now is to cry my heart out to God about battles that I couldn’t defeat, struggles that many people don’t know. I always used to fix things my way. But not this time, not anymore. When I surrender everything else to the powers above me, the weight on my shoulders is gone, my heart is healed, my mind is clear. Then I can focus on what I can do best to what’s in front of me. When frustration comes again, any time of day or any moment now, I just repeat this thought in my head, “Just do what you can now, tomorrow is another day”.
Hope this helps you get through your seemingly darkest days. Always remember that you are not alone. There is still so much love in the world and so much love you can give to yourself.