I believe that there’s always more than meets the eye. We are more than what people see, more than what we allow ourselves to be.
We all walk around like we’re rock solid and strong when most of the time we are but fragile, broken beings. We go out there with our shields up.
Getting rid of all excess tested my creativity and challenged me with this constantly pressing question, “So, what can you make out of this?”
I am thrilled about the possibilities that they could explore, discover and fall in love with.
Maybe for most of us we have to stop waiting for the world to love us.
We like hanging on to old ways and beliefs, even beliefs about ourselves, and come up with excuses. Think about what staying in your comfort zone has cost you.
So last night, I wrote this email to one of the writers I admire.
I hate you.
I keep stumbling upon your blogs for some reason. Each and every time, the “what if” about pursuing my passion gets re-ignited. I’m too comfortable with the security I have in my life right now that I can come up with excuses to not take another shot at things that give my heart wings.
I love writing and speaking.
I have a “9-5” job working as a _____________. I don’t have the luxury of time to work on things that inspire me.
I run out of ideas on what to __________ or _______ about.
I’m insecure and worry about what _________ would think or say about my opinions/thoughts.
I only have a fair command of the _________.
I am fascinated about __________, _________, _________, ________ and helping/teaching others what I know but I don’t have a degree on any of these.
Yet, time and again, I dream about becoming “that ________”, “that ________”. This unfulfilled desire leaves a hole in my heart,
A dent in my life, in my own person, that makes me feel like I’m not living “me”.
I don’t believe pursuing these things will give me a sense of security that I sort of value too.
But you, you are living your dream, my dream. And you’re being true to you, and you’re happy, and you’re creating an impact on the lives of people you don’t even know.
I wish I could be you. I wish I have your wisdom. I wish I have your courage.
Frustrated as to where I am right now, I just ______________________.
I’m desperate. I think I am. Where and how do I go from here? I’m half way through and very much aware that life is slipping away.
Apologies for the “redacted” parts. I think I’m not ready at all to be completely vulnerable. But I think you get the sense of frustration I am in. If you’re in this state too, isn’t it comforting to know that It’s not a lonely world for you? Somewhere out there or here, someone else is stuck at a corner, not sure if the right thing to do next is to just turn.
Frustration is good. It helps you see how badly you’re unhappy of what’s happening now, and probably of where things are heading. Unhappy in a sense that, what you see, may not always be the truth that you’ve always known.
Someone once told me that in life, sometimes it’s not about knowing the answers, It’s about what you do with what you’ve come to know.
So my friend, what is it that you’ve been wrestling with? Chances are, you already have the answers. You’re just scared of what it’s gonna take.
I am scared too, and yet, here I am.
Yes, you heard me. There will be days when you’d feel like you’re not getting it. You feel slow, so behind, down, uninspired, even clumsy, and unsteady. There will be days when you’d doubt yourself and your capacity, question your plans, and beliefs, or how you walk on this journey called life. Yes, the struggle is real. We have our highs and lows and sometimes we find it difficult to handle both.
In this amazing journey that we all share, it’s without a doubt that all of us are eternal students of a real-life university. We stumble and make mistakes, and at times we reap small wins and victories too. It’s an exciting experience, at least, if you perceive it that way.
You see, we see the world through lenses that we choose to put on. Some of us wear a pair of blurry ones, some too clear, and some are just about right. What do I mean?
I have met a lot of people who are either too negative or too optimistic. I don’t judge, I’d tell you that. I’d take the person as he is and get to know him as time unfolds. Talk about being a realist.
I wasn’t born a realist, but I think I became one as I navigated my way through pleasant and unpleasantness experiences. If you’ve read past articles that I wrote, ( https://sundaewrites.com/it-all-burned-down-to-the-ground/ , https://sundaewrites.com/the-bitter-pill/, https://sundaewrites.com/make-room/, https://sundaewrites.com/closed-doors/), I’ve shared an empowering question that most of us fail or fear to ask ourselves. The question of “What Now?”.
This sort of examination is so freeing and empowering as it gives us the courage to let go of what used to be, what we had or have lost in the past, and opens our eyes to the present along with the possibilities that are out there, things that we can hope for and realize. This brings me back to the first three words you’ve read in this piece- “Ride it out”.
Let these words sink in. Yes, days can be difficult sometimes, just like the weather. But imagine yourself as water, making your way through a river. Surely you will hit rocks but still, you’d flow your way around it. You go on and on, to wherever your strength could take you.
Next time when you feel like you’re down and weak, don’t feel too bad about it. Don’t sulk in tears. If you must, allow yourself to cry or frown. Feel the feeling, experience it, but not for long. At one point you have to tell yourself, “That’s enough”. You have to pick yourself up and move on. Others say, “Fake it ‘till you make it”, but I say, “Fake it ‘till you BE it.- all in a positive context. Emotion follows motion. Smile and leap instead of walk. Trust me, you’ll be surprised by how different you’d start to feel.
Light up my friend. Never let a gloomy day or a losing moment, weigh you down too much or too long. It happens to everyone even to the best of the best. Life is too short to let yourself get stuck in that one moment forever. Again I say, ride it out!
This week, I’ve spent an extra day at home with no special plans. I meant it to be a lazy day. It’s good to have a break every now and then, with no deadlines to beat. The luxury of time, some may call it. A brief pause from everything.
I didn’t set any intention that day. Around afternoon I listened to K-love (my favorite station) and all these christian songs started to fill my room. For a brief moment, my thoughts wandered around what ifs.
I believe most of us get caught up with the uncertainty and mystery of the future. We get so engrossed in “what ifs“ rather than “what is”, in “what could be” rather than “what is now”. That is why the magic of the present gets lost so easily.
The Journey or the Destination
A lot of influential people in the world, including lifestyle gurus, life coach, and motivational speakers advise us to focus on possibilities, the idea of what can be or who we can be. While it is good, I hope we don’t lose sight of the journey just because we are too fixated on the destination.
We all have these hopes and desires for our future, right? We dream about them, fantasize about them, but only a few of us put in the work. We avoid discomfort, difficulties, struggles, and sometimes we even avoid change. So I think the big challenge here is for us to embrace these things instead of avoiding them. To love putting in the hours, the effort, the attitude, knowing that, we are in the process of becoming- the person we want to be, the person that we can be.
Fear of the Future
While some are excited about the future, the rest of the world fears it. Fear of losing a job, a title, a house, an investment, a business, or losing someone close. Such fear also takes us away from the present- – what we have now or who we have, or what we can do. I think the challenge is for us to not be paralyzed by fear, and to let go of control:
- controlling what is uncertain and
- controlling things that are not really up to us,
Rather, we can focus on the next best thing that can be done in our present circumstances.
If you’re constantly chasing rainbows, you’ll miss the beauty of the rain. If you always set your eyes uncovering the mystery of tomorrow, you will miss the ones that are willingly unfolding before your very eyes, right here, right now.
My friend, don’t get to hooked up on the future. You’re here now. Make the most of it.
“A worthwhile purpose outweighs any kind of struggle.”- sundaewrites
Nobody is immune to pain. Everybody has it or had it, at one point in their lives. So if you are suffering right now, know that you are not alone.
Pain is cruel, yes, but pain can also be your friend. Like any gift, it can come in any form or package. You need to unwrap and accept it and know what is it trying to teach you.
- comes strength you never thought you had
- comes wisdom, you wished you always knew
- comes courage you wished you clothed yourself with earlier in life
- comes resilience, with life teaching you how to bend
- comes pruning, stripping you of weak strongholds and false dependencies.
- comes the fulfillment of your purpose and realization of things you value the most
Not all pain in the world is worthy to endure. Choose the ones that truly serve your purpose- make you better, make the lives of those around you better. Choose the kind of pain that when you look back years down the line, you could proudly say, “Yes, I did that, I suffered that because I truly loved”. Choose the kind of pain that consumes all your strength, yet at the end of the day rewards you with so much peace and settles your heart.Whether or not you wake up to another day, your heart is free and content.
I have my share of pain. It may not be as much as the rest of the world is currently suffering for, but it is real to me, as much as your pain is real to you. Don’t deny pain or just go about life like it isn’t there. Even at the peak of one’s success, it can still be present. Even if you’re surrounded by loved ones, drowning in wealth or blessed with a good health, there’s always a piece of you that knows pain. That’s the price of being human, or should I say, the gift of being one.
How can it be a gift, you ask. In my own journey, pain has been and will always be a great teacher. It helps me grow, learn, and discern what’s worth suffering for and gives me the courage too to forge ahead. It reminds me that I’m fully alive and breathing, and that life is real because I can feel it, it’s happening and I, am in it.
Of all the things I have or have accomplished, I’m more proud of the ones that required me to sacrifice much. Pain can be a character builder, you know, and a great teacher. And character is something that nobody can take away from you.
Whatever pain you’re suffering right now, maybe it’s good to ask, “Is it worth it”?
When you show up for work, for a cause, an activity, or someone, ask yourself why you do. Is the reason, something you really care about? Is it something that serves a greater good? Does it make you better as a human being? Does it equip you to bless the world more? Is it worthy of a day in your life? If yes, then go and embrace pain. A worthwhile purpose outweighs any kind of struggle, and embracing that is giving yourself the privilege to live a bigger life.